Journal Entry 14 11.24.15

So my Master was upset with me Sunday because I haven't been able to keep up with my journal. When he finally did contact me I was in tears because I felt like I was a failure, and I still feel that way. I really don't want to disappoint him, but I guess I'm just one big disappointment. I haven't been able to sleep really good any more partly because of the baby and partly because of this. I guess I am just not use to having someone in my life that actually wants to be my Master and teach me. Today though is probably going to be one of the hardest days of my life. It is my ex's birthday and he is no longer with us on this earth to celebrate it. I thought I was ok and strong enough to where it wasn't gonna bother me, but I find myself in tears cause of it.