Journal Entry 3 10.05.15

Just when things were starting to seem good I get the call no one wants to get. My ex boyfriend/brother passed away Friday night. ever since then it's been like I've been on autopilot. My Master has been doing the best he can to try and keep me from breaking down completely, but even now I'm in tears trying to do this journal entry. Its been one thing after another and tomorrow is the viewing with the funeral following Wednesday. I'm not sure how I will bear it seeing some one I care about laying still when I know that is not the person he is. I had talked to my SL sister about it and she has been trying to keep me calm and trying to remind me I need to not be stressing due to some possible complications with my pregnancy. Maybe once this is all over I will be able to function like a normal person again. I've maybe had only 3 hours of sleep since Friday night, so i know eventually my body will give up and I'll pass out asleep.